The Fight

And now the fight begins….

The lack of sleep is slowly infiltrating my thinking.  I’m passive aggressive and my fuse is getting shorter.  I am having to constantly reframe my inner voice.  

I am cynical, edgy and spoiling for a fight.  

Yet, I know that this is inside of me.  No one is suddenly against me or trying to get back at me for something.  I know it’s lack of sleep and if I had slept consistently each night I’d be at least level not sliding.

I grab hold of the rope and pray the decent isn’t too far… 

Derailed

I started having severe stomach pains Monday and the doctor diagnosed an ulcer.  I spent most of the last few days in bed, making me feel even more behind.  I need to go in tomorrow and have the H. Pylori test so they can treat it, if that’s whats causing this.  I hope they fix me up fast, before I lose my job from missing so much work.

While it’s not been a great few days and I’m definitely feeling a little overwhelmed, I am not giving up.